Since I met the Lord, I committed in my heart that I shall be active in the ministry. Not only for ministry purposes but my desire to be a hands on mother that is why I asked wisdom from the Lord as to what would be the most suited profession for me. Definitely, a bundy clock-based work is not preferable.
Be in the legal profession where you could put up your own office and be the boss thereof--SOUNDS GREAT and so I invested 5 years for a lifetime time-management. God has been gracious to me by giving me opportunities to serve Him while a student but still I considered my years in school as though I was a prisoner. I cried after knowing that my name was on the list of graduating students. FINALLY I am out of the dungeon. BUT another delay happened when I have to retake the bar.
HOORAY! What shall I do after passing the exam? Be active in church? start off a kid's ministry? What, when and where Lord?
TANTARARAN ---PNP! OK, Lord, as you lead.
I do not know until when I shall be in the police ministry but I am having more friends from said field. It is in friendship that the title of this post comes in. It is hard to minister or disciple someone unless there is a binding relationship shared. A relationship that is free to deepen or grow under normal circumstances. How can it be normal when the people I am meeting are so hesitant to be themselves because of my profession? Am I really different or am I hard to deal with? Is it my profession or my very personality that makes them shy away?
How can I encourage these people that it is okay to tag me along even on the simplest occasions such looking for a dress, a simple snack around the corner or a quick chitchat? I am busy and that would always be the case but I also know how to balance my time and my life. Being with friends is far more important than being in front of the laptop. Not that I am lazy worker but I am flexible to meet out friends and catch up with the papers on a later time of the day.
Just invite me over and I will sure come when I can :-)
If it will disrupt my schedule, who cares, I know how to buffer.
It hurts when I am not invited at all simply because the person cares more about my schedule but does not care of seeing me.
It is more bothering is when I am the one initiating and I am refused to because they do not want to disturb me. Yes, I am following a timetable but I am not unreasonable to commit to do one thing that I am not capable of sustaining and I hate doing. I definitely love hanging out with friends and family. I love them that I want their company. Papers do not laugh, sympathize or share burden but people are warm, crazy and accountable.
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