I was in the office when i took that picture by myself "selfie". Obviously, i had my hair colored. Lately, i've been exerting efforts to trim down because the wedding day of my friend is fast-approaching. I do not jog everyday especially when it rains that is why the set goal is slow to realize. I intend to intensify it by November by not eating rice at night and by maximizing the amazing twister.
it is not about the wedding alone, the call to be healthy is ringing loud and i'm getting conscious and uncomfy of my looks. PLUS, my heart is struggling over something, it is best to channel my focus on something else worthwhile. However, i cannot let the confusion of someone rob my joy. i would surely endeavor to keep that smile in the picture, by God's grace of course.
we parted ways hearing him say that i already knew his decision. honestly, i do not know it. I am also confused but there is no way that i'll be eaten by it because i need focus in my work. Yes, it is extra-difficult not to think about it but thanks to God that i am coping.
in this turmoil i am in
the best thing to do is to keep praying
i may not be the author of it
but entrusting it to Christ surely helps
waiting is always not comfortable
but it is God's way of saying that He is in control
all those questions making my nape cold
to surrender them all to God is a call
this is surely just for a season,
yeah, struggles knock hard on my door
it is high time to let let my knees kiss the floor
with all i am, i pray, "Father, let Thy will be done"
i am planning to master more christian songs :-) yeeha!
i'll start with Made me glad by Hillsong
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Sunday, October 26, 2014
no to cold
i cannot beg for something that should be freely given,
to trust you words is a leap of faith
specially when i am feeling otherwise
what had been strong and consistent before is now fading slowly
i am not sure if you fully considered me saying "sorry"
the coldness from your end never failed to strike me
am i at fault again in not believing that everything is ok?
cause if it were true, then why does the ice keep piling up?
despite all these, i'll try to hang on more
with you, i learned that i am impatient and selfish
and i am sorry that you suffered from all of which
despite that, i am glad that you stick around
indeed you did not leave but you did not promise that you will stay
i bet, you were just waiting till i become stable and okay
i cannot blame you if you walk away
whenever i fall, i know that i have to get up,
i have to shed tears and try once again
but i do not know if it would be with you then
your silence simply does not communicate care
take your time in reconsidering everything.
as for me,
i am sorry for all the hurting words and decisions my dear
pic taken from thepinkbrickroad.com
to trust you words is a leap of faith
specially when i am feeling otherwise
what had been strong and consistent before is now fading slowly
i am not sure if you fully considered me saying "sorry"
the coldness from your end never failed to strike me
am i at fault again in not believing that everything is ok?
cause if it were true, then why does the ice keep piling up?
despite all these, i'll try to hang on more
with you, i learned that i am impatient and selfish
and i am sorry that you suffered from all of which
despite that, i am glad that you stick around
indeed you did not leave but you did not promise that you will stay
i bet, you were just waiting till i become stable and okay
i cannot blame you if you walk away
whenever i fall, i know that i have to get up,
i have to shed tears and try once again
but i do not know if it would be with you then
your silence simply does not communicate care
take your time in reconsidering everything.
as for me,
i am sorry for all the hurting words and decisions my dear
pic taken from thepinkbrickroad.com
Friday, October 24, 2014
cuppycake song
You're my Honeybunch, Sugarplum
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear
why a dear thing lead to nada?
this grieving soul has no answer
i have no words anymore to share
and to move on might be my dare
timing is everything
it is crystal clear
pic taken from: loveisrepect.org
Pumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie Pie
You're my Cuppycake, Gumdrop
Snoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my Eye
And I love you so and I want you to know
That I'll always be right here
And I love to sing sweet songs to you
Because you are so dear
why a dear thing lead to nada?
this grieving soul has no answer
i have no words anymore to share
and to move on might be my dare
timing is everything
it is crystal clear
pic taken from: loveisrepect.org
Monday, September 15, 2014
the possibilty
An endearment that has found its way to throb within
How it tickles the soul seems ineluctable
This blood-pumping muscle has a mind of its own
Foolish i'd be if i will trust it to lead
This tide is not a carefree ride
When the current down below pulls harder than the wind's blow
It is a beautiful season which i hope to last long if not for a lifetime
Without compromising the very core values of what must living be
I have no name for it yet
But i'm surely praying that it'll get there crystal clear
Otherwise
I'm fine with waiting and starting all over again
To Him who loves me more than anyone could,
Please take me where you destined me to be
and take control of the beating of my fondness
To You, i commit all possibilities.
Friday, September 5, 2014
The Goldsmith
MAY YOU SEE A PART OF HIM IN THIS WORK IN PROGRESS.DO I HAVE HIS SMILE? HEHE
A gold is said to be in its purest state if it reflects clearly whatever image is before it. Said state is reached by a thorough purification process. Flames in its ideal temperature is a necessary part of the process.
With the complexities of modern living, a person absorbs impurities from all facets of life not limited to media, personal entaglements, inevitable moral decay of the society and confusion in varying philosophies.The need to be anchored on something constant and true is considerable. In the deck of supposed truths, there is a probability that each card is filled with poison or there is that one which will not be dissolved if put to fire.
If GOD has but one characteristic which is resounding if called out and sung in haeven, it would be HOLy, HOLY, HOLY. A God who is beyond the reach of defilement requires that His subjects would also be holy for God cannot dwell in sin. If God created man in his own image, we therefore have the seeds of holiness in us which God can grow if we are willing to plant ourselves in His good soil. To track the path of righteousness, all that is required of us is willingness.
I could recall that my faith in Him has been tried several times if not constantly whenever i am tempted to sin. When i was a babe in my walk with Him, He broke me by taking those i value more than Him. Those breaking emphasized that He is more than enough. What i adore about in the process of breaking is the restoration part where He brings back what He had taken in multifold. I was temporarily disowned by my family but our relationship got stronger and sweeter when i did not quit to fully know what kind of love He was filling me to share to them. Aside from my "blood" family, i have my spiritual family who supports me all the way in my christian journey and i am grateful to keep them through these years.
Next to my family and friends, i treasure the most, education,-------TBC
A gold is said to be in its purest state if it reflects clearly whatever image is before it. Said state is reached by a thorough purification process. Flames in its ideal temperature is a necessary part of the process.
With the complexities of modern living, a person absorbs impurities from all facets of life not limited to media, personal entaglements, inevitable moral decay of the society and confusion in varying philosophies.The need to be anchored on something constant and true is considerable. In the deck of supposed truths, there is a probability that each card is filled with poison or there is that one which will not be dissolved if put to fire.
If GOD has but one characteristic which is resounding if called out and sung in haeven, it would be HOLy, HOLY, HOLY. A God who is beyond the reach of defilement requires that His subjects would also be holy for God cannot dwell in sin. If God created man in his own image, we therefore have the seeds of holiness in us which God can grow if we are willing to plant ourselves in His good soil. To track the path of righteousness, all that is required of us is willingness.
I could recall that my faith in Him has been tried several times if not constantly whenever i am tempted to sin. When i was a babe in my walk with Him, He broke me by taking those i value more than Him. Those breaking emphasized that He is more than enough. What i adore about in the process of breaking is the restoration part where He brings back what He had taken in multifold. I was temporarily disowned by my family but our relationship got stronger and sweeter when i did not quit to fully know what kind of love He was filling me to share to them. Aside from my "blood" family, i have my spiritual family who supports me all the way in my christian journey and i am grateful to keep them through these years.
Next to my family and friends, i treasure the most, education,-------TBC
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